Today = Blah

Today has been a crazy day. I went nowhere. It was supposed to storm...or at least rain...or at least sprinkle. But it did none of the above. So I stayed home like a good heart baby mommy (yes - we still go nowhere when germs might exist). I didn't even drive to Starbucks or something of the like just to leave the house. Boring.

Emerson asked to watch Tangled twice...She's becoming quite the princess movie watching little girl. I hoped this day would come, and now that it has, I didn't quite think about how she would just want to watch the same exact princess movie over and over again. It's a really cute movie so I don't mind watching it over.and.over.again. But sometimes I would like to watch something else... anything else. Well, except for Team Umizoomi... (I am not a fan of the belly screen if you couldn't tell...)

Robert is quite the man-diva. (Is that a word? I think I just made a new word! Yea, me!) He likes to wake up slowly. By slowly, I mean, he wakes up very alert and wants the world to stop so he can "adjust" (i.e. no extra sensory activity than absolutely needed). Emerson, on the other hand, wants him to have every toy available at that moment. So she immediately goes off to round up these toys and bring them to him one by one. Sweet, I know... But really? Do we need all these (and on my bed nonetheless)?

I guess its just her thing...making a mess I mean. This is Emerson's room after her nap (see pic below). I have always kept toys out of her bedroom (it helps with sleep patterns...no distractions...). But now that she is interested in books (without my prompting), she pulls them out herself when she doesn't want to sleep (during naps and complete darkness at night). I guess I shouldn't complain...But I do get tired of stacking books by height (yes, OCD self is trying to force tendencies on 2 year old child - JUST KIDDING!). [Not really on the kidding part. I seriously wouldn't mind if she was super obsessed with keeping things in order.]

Mister Robert has been one needy baby today. He is extremely needy every single day, but today, I put him down only to change his diaper. I think I also got about 20 minutes of playing on his mat too. But I still had to be playing with him so that doesn't help me much in doing anything else. But my arms got a break at least. I do feel bad for Emerson on these days. She doesn't get much mommy time when he is like this. And it makes me feel even worse when I think back to her at this age, when I would let her cry it out (just a bit) so she didn't become so dependant on me. Unfortunately, Robert is not able to cry it out...think blue baby... His O2 sats drop into the 70s when he gets upset. Not good.

These pictures are actually from yesterday (Friday)...It makes me feel better knowing that we actually did an activity versus just doing whatever to just survive like today. She made her Granddaddy a picture. It may not look like much, BUT she used markers, glue, and scissors to create this masterpiece. Gasp! I know...Granddaddy better be proud. And it better be hanging in his office. Emerson has mentioned it about 100 times today wondering if Granddaddy found his tape yet (you know...to hang her picture).

It's almost 9pm now (exciting Saturday night, right?)...And I am blogging with a baby on my lap. He's *trying* to sleep. I say that because he sleeps a lot, but at the same time, doesn't sleep enough (at least long enough and hard enough apparently). I am beyond tired. I think doing a lot of nothing like today actually made me more tired than usual. It's times like these that I look forward to sleep.

Bedtime for Emerson is approximately 7-7:30. And it is definitely the hardest part of the day. She has always been a champ when it came to going to bed or naps. But in the past few months, it has just become a disaster unless she is beyond tired to fight about it. She sleeps well (for the most part) once she finally passes out, but its hard to get her there. I wish I was able to read her endless stories, lay down with her, etc., but I just can't do it. I have an 8 month old on a feeding pump with a heart condition usually crying in the other room. And unfortunately, when it comes to these types of things, he has priority right now. I guess this is when I would be able to tag team with that other person who should be actively involved in our home life, but that isn't an option. I keep telling myself, "this too shall pass". I sure hope so! It is heartbreaking hearing her upset at night only wanting me to stay with her. I just don't have any other option. I am not sure who actually reads any of this, but maybe someone out there can send up a little prayer for me about this. It really bothers me that I can't comfort Emerson when she is upset at bedtime.

On another note...I am trying to get back to my blog. I actually have quite a few posts that are still "drafts". I never posted them...Maybe its time to get those up so you can see what we have all been doing and, most importantly, how Robert has been progressing.